in despite of
In spite of; disregarding. You want to sell the house now, in despite of all the renovations we've done to make it our dream home?
despite (oneself)
Despite one not wanting or intending to. I enjoyed our walk but had to sit down despite myself because my knee started bothering me.
despite yourself
used to indicate that you did not intend to do the thing mentioned. 1995 Ginu Kamani Junglee Girl Sahil chuckled, despite himself.